Friday, October 13, 2006
Life now is like shitt.
Every second is like hell to me.
Family problems, relationship problems, and friendship problems.
Enough is enough.
Can god just let me off?
Dun he think that its really too much for just a 16 year old girl here trying to concentrate and study hard for os?
Ohh wells,
went to eastpoint to study with feebie.
But the first unlucky thing was, I MISSED MY STOP.
So i had to walk all the way from the bus stop to changi hospital, den to eastpoint.
But i was thinking all the way so its kinda okayy for me luhh, the walk.
Den saw feebie, blah blah blah.
The first thing when i saw her i felt like crying.
And yes, i did cry after that.
I talked to her about my problems and we kinda shared many personal things too.
At least when im with her, i can forget all my problems and just try to be happy.
Anyways, didnt eat much today also.
And i think that my body now is like rejecting food alr.
Everytime i eat or even drink milo, within 2 minutes i will have to go to the toilet bowl to puke out everything. But after that, i feel full though.
So is this a little like the when you eat den you go toilet and dig your mouth?
But i didnt dig though, it just came out by itself.
I did an analysis today.
Here it goes.
Normally people who are sad, they would mutilate themselves. Haiya cut themselves luhh.
And those who cut themselves would feel alot more better after cutting because at least they feel the pain on their hands den they would try to forget the pain that they are feeling.
So, same goes for me.
Sorry char, sorry fiona, sorry everyone.
You know wad i mean here.
But i really wanna say sorry.
Cos i had no choice.
Every second was killing me.
I just had to do it.
Dun be angry with me please, char. Please also think about it if you were in my shoes.
Today is really an unlucky day, friday the 13.
I seriously hope tomorrow would be a better day.
I NEED A HUG SERIOUSLY.
PLease, just a hug.
It will help me ALOT.
At least i let me know that there are still people that care for me.
10/13/2006 08:07:00 PM
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